el-anhelar:

E.E. Cummings

whativetastedofdesire:

this

My days have been feeling a little better. Started a new personal journal where i write letters to people. But oh dear, i will never send those out. Im pretty sure people would either get pissed off or really sad.

I want days like this again…

I hate how things have been goin with him for the last year. It sucks. I only see him 4 to 8 hours a week. Our schedules totally conflixt with each other’s. &i hate how we barely even have contact on our time away..

I feel so alone &unloved most of the time. I miss him alll the time. I wish he could be here with me. Holdin me like he does when we’re together but hes not. I only hear his voice when he calls me to say goodnight. I wish i had a normal relationship. I wish i was happier…